盛|Dickson ~ My Solemn Promise

Dreams were in vain, evaporate into the air, my vanished hope, still it hurts. And i wake up in the morning, knowing it’s already a history, it’s like i can no longer care.. i know it’s gone, but the disatisfaction stays. Some how, positive thoughts chasing in, healing my feelings and emotions.

Time and time again, negativities seeking in. Things that are supposely own by you, things that you have always longing for, they are resistanceless to fate. A started sem break, was stained at its begining. Motionlessly, i accepted it on that very day. There are just much to learn, to think, to appreciate, to… evaluate.

I know what i deserve, but i really hope i can always fulfill my visions. Everytime when i failed, i was like barely saying “Nevermind, at least i learnt and experienced”

I know the feelings, because i felt it. although i know i should be able to handle it. But hell, can positive thoughts compromise with the feelings? I just know some emotions and feelings are to hard to hide, hide too much may end up with a blow out. I believe, i’m not good at this, so much more to improve.

This sem break isn’t the best yet, i feel thankful that i found a part time job, but seriously i feel it is ’meaningless’ when i think deeper. If it is not because of Mr. C, I would rather spend the time on things that i really wanted to do.

~ by dishengteng on June 16, 2009.