Hiatus
”I can still see the light at the end of the tunnel shine,
Through the dark times even when I lose my mind.
But it feels like no one in the world is listenin,
and I can’t ever seem to make the right decisions.
I walk around in the same haze, I’m still caught in my same ways.
I’m losing time in these strange days,
but somehow I always know the right things to say. ”
~ P.O.D
Finally, another sem has just over. I’m back to home.
Things were kinda mess up and tough for the past few months, sem 4 is indeed quite challenging yet still interesting, I’ve strained a lot and learnt a lot also.
I wasn’t allow to blog, and i don’t have the guts to write. I have so much feeling that i wanna tell.
In this sem, there were numerous chance for me to stray.. you won’t understand it if you don’t know me well. To be honest, there were several times that i choose to stray. However, warnings and hints aren’t invisible in our lives, it appears everyday if you paid attention to it. It just hurt me and ironically i still kept holding my pride.
Alex:”Di Sheng, i feel that you seldom share your problems with friends”
i wouldn’t share it most of the time, probably due to inconveniences and my attitude. I have my hard feelings also, sometimes, i wonder is it because of i give myself too many expectations, i think i am in certain extent, causing me to continue to sprint and didn’t notice those hidden needs that i’ve been yearning for. Take things for granted, all that i can say… We always think that we will spot the treasures again in the next run, as long as we run slower.
In the next round, nah… we won’t obey our promise. Why? Because people are running faster ahead of you, and we’re tempted to go with full speed. Again, we forgot about the treasures that we’re searching for, moreover, the people who cheering for us secretly. Those who loves you, those you wanted to spend more time with and care about them, and those who need your assistance.
Time and time again, we keep abiding to our unnecessary will, and end up with a vicious circle.
I asked my friends and myself “If you met up with aladin, and he can help to turn back time, back to the begining of year 2009, will you accept?” My answer is i will accept the offer, but… what will i do with it?
Change everything that you found it was bad previously? Score well in every test? To sum up it.. will you continue to be the runner? Or, stop chasing what are ahead of you, they may be people like Bill gates and Paris Hilton, or it may be figures like 3.7, 3.8, 4.0, 1000, 20000, 99999….
Will you? Stop and find the serene and redemption.
Remember, the lap has its end.
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